The innocent lies..

When we were little, we were always being told of stories like toothfairies, momok or even the all time famous 'hantu t*t*k' by the elders. ahhaah..

can this be considered as ghost of boobs?? He sure looks scary enough..


and those stories were only meant to keep us from danger and doing what is right instead. Afterall, they come with good intentions, just from the wrong direction! When they told us the lies, they probably wouldn't think that we might actually grow up believing those lies.. As a result, we tend to be paranoid over ridiculous things and nurture our children with the exact same lies! Take my story for an example. When i was 4, our family went for a vacation in Malacca and we visited the Hang Li Po Well, better known locally as 'Perigi Hang Li Po'.


Yes, so from the picture, you can see there's a hollow steel covering the top of the well. So innocently, I asked my father "abah, kenapa ada benda besi ni?" and my beloved father convincingly answered with a straight face "ooohhh.. memang lah! Sebab dekat dalam tu ada beruang besar! So x nak kasi die keluar, kena la letak jaring. Nanti dia makan adik! So lain kali jangan la panjat-panjat benda macam ni kalau tak ada jaring tau!" yes... very true... what a know-it-all father i have. tssk! So for years i grew up until i was in secondary, believing that the Perigi Hang Li PO has a big terrifying bear in it when really, the hollow steel is just to avoid people from falling into the well! goodness! But then again, it wasn't any hollow steel that kept me away from falling into any well, but it was the innocent lies my father had told me. So i guess, thank you dad!

Still, no matter how good one's intention is, telling a lie is never a good way of solving things. Regardless how effective it is. So people, be sure not to tell lies especially to kids! Because you'll be surprised of the things they are capable of doing and understanding just by treating them maturely.

becoming obama.

okay.. so i exaggerated the title. do not get me wrong. I am definitely not the next US prime minister. it is just that i have been extremely busy with studies and what not, that i find myself looking like obama. just not in the same colour too i hope.. so i am just taking a bit of my hectic life right now to post this. so that in the future i haven't been a total useless loser my whole life. and also to know that i have actually 'LIVED'. hope to write something 'worth-writing' soon!

what's your sign?

whenever i ask someone, "how do you know if you are ready for a marriage?" or "how do you know if a guy is the right one for you??" i'll always get different answers from different people. the most common answer from those who are married would be the famous 'u just know...(with the 'i'm in love' kind of look on their faces)'. and i'll be like whhhaattttt.....??? but now, though i'm only 22 to be talking about love, but i guess now i finally get it. but no! i'm not gonna do the whole 'u just noe' thing. so, this particular post will be my personal list of signs/criterias that show if he is the guy i would want to end up with:-

1. When picturing my married life with him, i feel at ease, possible and most importantly, happy.

2. He is the kind of person who would change his habits (the ones that i despise) without me telling him to.

3. This may sound a bit corny, but he is the kind of guy who can't sleep over a small argument i had with him.

4. He keeps on giving me surprises from time to time even if it's just buying the simple sugar-covered doughnut(my favourite!^_^) for me after a long, stressful day of classes.

5. I feel extremely comfortable when i'm with him, given any situation.

6. I'd go to great length to ensure our good future together.

7. We both understand and trust each other more than we trust anyone else.

8. Without me realizing it, i'm tolerating and accepting his few flaws and improving mine at the same time.

9. He is my confidant,my bestfriend, my brother and my partner.

10. What worries him, worries me as well.

11. When troubles hit paradise, i'd struggle my way solving it than losing him.

12. All other aspects in our lives coincides nicely. Family, friends,education.. everything that matters.

13. We both can communicate without troubling people around us.

14. He is sensitive towards small things such as making sure i have a supply of mineral water to drink in class.

15. Lastly, he makes sure i have enough time and fun spent with my family and friends whenever i get too caught up with studies and other stuff.

I could go on and on with the list, but then all you people would go yawning. so yeahh..i guess everyone gets the picture. I'm in love with my boyfriend. Though i might regret writing this if things don't turn out the way i wanted, but he deserves this. after all the unthinkable things he has done for me. then again, when u love someone, air liur basi pun wangi! anyways, u girls should have your own list as well. but no rush! you have all the time in the world to find your own mr.right! he could be your mr.wrong for all you know, but then again, no one is perfect. which is why you call him your other half. I might have found mine, or i might not. only god has the answer. however,I believe god knows whats best for me. therefore, i won't regret having him with me at this time of my life. :)

*this particular piece is dedicated to Mohd Hisyamuddin B. Ahmad Kamil, my sense of everything..

hello from the past.

it has been almost 3 years since the last time i blogged. many lessons learned, new faces are known and memorable moments passed. These past few years really shaped me into becoming a better person for the future. everything becomes clear and certain. in fact, while reading my previous posts earlier i noticed they were childish, serious and immature. well, i was 19! so i ought to be ridiculous??? anyhow, reminiscing my life for the last 3 years, i have been blessed with the wonderful things in life. Precious family, good education, superb friends and a supermassive partner. :) Apart from the little things around me that keep me going and thankful with all that i have. The most valuable thing i have learned in these few years is the chance to see the goods in all the misfortunes i've had. Humans rarely stop to think of the rainbow god gives us after a thunderous storm. Instead of seeing things from the bright side, we always prefer to blame the situation for the mistakes we have done. and that includes me! obviously.. however, realizing that, i am trying to change that negative part of me. how about you? Personally, i believe we should all take some time off from our hectic life to think of the amazing mistakes we have done. because they are definitely worth the time!

New Year's resolution. Myth or reality?

It’s like a tradition that is devotedly passed on from a generation to the next. New Year’s resolution. Frankly speaking, I don’t even know why people even have a new year’s resolution. They barely realized whatever they have written on a piece of colourful paper pasted on their bedroom walls just across their bed! Give it a month or two, and that same piece of paper will be found lying on the floor. Or worst, they magically disappear! Don’t’ ask me how, ask yourself. Because I’m never the kind of person who have a so called New Year’s resolution. But I sure have my goals! Yes. To me, one must have an objective or purposes for every second they spend in a visible form of god’s greatest creations. I’m not saying that New Year’s resolution is a total waste of time. To certain people, it is actually their way of making sure they achieve everything they have well in planned. But then again, it only applies on certain people who are dedicated and discipline enough to ensure they fulfill their resolutions. The truth is, you don’t really need a New Year’s resolution to make an improvement in your life. Why? Because you do not need a reason to become a better person. We learned to find the better part of us as we grow our way to the time when we are left with wrinkles and not a single tooth. So, as I mentioned earlier, I do not have any New Year’s resolution. Even if I do, it has always been the same thing, which is, to become a better person in all aspects life demands. I would say that goals are my long term expectations on myself but hope is what I have close at heart while I explore the path to reach my goals. And that hope is the hope of god guiding me in making the right decision all the time. So if you were to ask me if I have a New Year’s resolution, I would say I have goals and hopes. But not fake promises to myself.

Apparently, she is not an opportunist.

How preoccupied I was these few weeks that I barely have the time to post a new entry. Pardon my delays. (a way of apologizing to my patient Ms.Nazreen..ehheheh. ;)) Anyway, back to our topic. So, this time around it’s “things I learned about myself this year” Well, actually I discovered quite a number of things about myself lately. However, to compress everything on this blank layout would take forever! So I am just going to highlight the obvious. Quite recently, I learned that I am not an opportunist. I stick to one thing that I’m satisfied with. From my love life, to my meals, up to my clothing! I tend to stick to that one particular thing for a long time until it finds its way to my disgust. Let’s take my meals for an example. Staying here in our college, we are left with no choice by the cafeteria when it comes to good meals. It has always been the same old meal over and over again. 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Since last year, the first time I had my lunch here, it was a plate of rice, with some curry gravy and a ‘ikan keli’(I wonder what they call it in UK?). It was the most satisfying meal for that one whole day. And I’m still having the same lunch ever since. Or at least a similar side dishes together with my precious ‘ikan keli’!!! My all time favourite. As far as I’m concerned, my loyal ‘ikan keli’ is still catering to the highest satisfaction of my appetite. So I decided to stay loyal to my ‘keli’ as well. And I’m definitely glad it is not swimming its way to my dislikes. Unlike my unfaithful ‘Roti boy’. I bet many of you are familiar with this brand. A famous bakery in Malaysia. The tagline reads, ‘buns to die for!”. They sure got that right. I, was once a passionate fan of ‘roti boy’ until I passed by one of its outlet in KLCC with my sister. I smelled the aroma in the air, and nonchalantly, I said to my sister, “somehow ‘roti boy smells like coffee huh??” she replied, “well, it should. Since it is made of coffee Wani..” (duhhhhh….) I was devastated as I’m not a fan of caffeine. I felt like dying learning the fact that my favourite bun is made of coffee! Again, they were right. ‘’buns to die for!” And guess what? That was the last time I even glance at ‘Roti boy”! I guess the same thing happen when it comes to romance. Probably it would not be wise to go into the details but I’m sure most of you get my point well. Right? Let’s just say I was happy with it until it successfully finds its way to my exasperation. Just like that aroma of ‘roti boy’. The difference is, I still have not managed to loathe it as much as I loathe ‘roti boy’. Eheheheh..;) yea.. a glimpse of my personals to share.

Home sweet home!!!

Although my home does not smell as sweet as how they always claim it should be, it is always the best place to be rather than anywhere else. Moreover, when I’m in the middle of facing turbulences in my everyday lives, my home is my everything. Nothing feels better than being able to sleep in my own bed, eating home-cooked meals while catching up with your loved ones at the same time. Well, probably not for most people. But any homey person like me could never agree less. For me, my definition of a perfect getaway would be watching movies from pirated VCD (since original ones cost more..) at home in my ‘kaftan’ eating rice with my mum’s famous ‘gulai ayam cili padi’(the dish I’ve been eating since as long as I can remember (pfffttt!!). Someone’s home is a place where he/she can be everything that he/she is not outside. A place where you keep all your childhood secrets and memories in a box written ‘my birthday box’ on it? Yes, unfortunately I’m one of that people who did those miraculous things. But actually I still keep all the things I want to be reminded of in the box sometimes. So that should be ‘do’ for present. Not past. Perhaps, a home might not be that sweet for certain people due to bad childhood memories. But I don’t think that we are capable of denying that a home is a major part of our life cycle on earth. Whether in a positive or negative way, it gives us unforgettable experiences to treasure. Spending most of my days here in Londang, looking at the same faces, solving the same mathematical calculations (and yet, I still confused 2x4 as 2+4????) and stressing my day out with tons of if-you-want-a-bright-future tasks, I always look forward to spending a nice, cozy weekend at home. It is no wonder why my roommates always say “it is the end of the world before she thought of spending a fortnight in MMC!”